3 Apr 2011

Speaking Test - Report

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Hello my dearest students... Welcome back to my blog, after finishing your listening test last week, now, I'm going to give you a speaking test. There will be four sections on my speaking test. So, let's get to the business!

Section 1
In this section there will be three pictures provided with some questions. What you have to do is take a look at the pictures and answer the questions. Answer the questions in form of report, then record your answer.

Picture 1
Questions:
  1. What does picture 1 tell you about?
  2. What do you know about picture 1?
Picture 2
Questions:
  1. What do you know about picture 2?
  2. How come it happen?
Picture 3
Question:
  1. What do you know about picture 3? Elaborate your answer!
Section 2
In this section I will give you three types of model dialogs/ monologues that will help you to work on the next three sections. Please pay attention.
Dialog about Volcanic Eruption
The following is a conversation focusing on volcanic eruptions. After reading the following dialog, make a role play with your partner and record your voice.

Jane     : Hey Kevin, what are you reading on?
Kevin   : Oh, I’m reading news about eruption in Japan after the tsunami.
Jane     : Yeah, it was very terrible. It would be the most terrible one.
Kevin   : Yes, it is written that “The Shinmoedake volcano started spewing ash and rocks into the sky, and the explosion from the eruption could be heard miles away.  It is unclear at this point if the eruption of the Japan volcano is linked to the massive earthquake in Japan a few days ago, but at this point it certainly looks like that could be the case.”
Jane     : So, do you also think that the eruption in Japan happened because the earthquake and tsunami a few days ago?
Kevin   : Umm, it could be. But I do not know exactly the cause of the eruption.
Jane     : Then, what exactly is a volcanic eruption?
Kevin   : As far as I know, a volcanic eruption happen when the magma or molten rock beneath the earth’s surface is pushed out through the vent in the volcano’s crater and flows out in the form of lava. Eruptions occur when magma contains a high proportion of gas.
Jane     : Looks something like one losing his temper.
Kevin   : Quite true. Just as the pent up anger is released with force, the lava is forced out.
Jane     : No wonder a quick-tempered person is called hot-blooded.

Glossary
eruption  : forceful pushing out
vent         : opening
crater      : a bowl -shaped cavity
pent up   : held back
lava          : melted rock which we is also known as magma

Useful Expression
Asking for opinion
  • What do you think about.....?
  • Do you think that.....?
Simple questions
  • What is this?
  • What is that?
Asking for information
  • What do you know about.....?
  • Can you tell me what is......?
Now, I will give you another model dialog. This is an authentic dialog about an earthquake (taken from: www.learnrealenglish.com). Please listen carefully to the following audio and learn the difficult words and some expression from it.



Glossary

check this out                  : listen to this
I have no idea                 : I do not know
you’ve gotta be kidding : you cannot be serious
pullin’ my leg                   : making a joke by lying to someone and pretending the lie is true
far-fetched                       : unbelievable
due east                            : exactly east of someplace
epicenter                          : the middle of an earthquake
all of a sudden                  : right away with no warning
aftershock                        : an earthquake that happens right after another earthquake
it dawned on me              : I remembered; I realized
totally                               : definitely
a while                              : a long time
it’s a given                        : there is no doubt
perspective                      : what someone thinks about something
World Series                    : the championship games in American baseball
taking place                      : happening
cut out                               : no longer was able to be seen
rundown                           : information
weed through                   : to look or dig through
I’ll tell you what               : that is for sure
a dime a dozen                 : very common
surreal                               : unreal

The last model I will give to you is a monologue about The Truth about Vaccines (taken from: www.videojug.com). I provide you with the transcription of the monologue, but first, please watch the following video without reading the transcription. Try to understand what the video tells you about.





The Truth about Vaccines

           The United States have the highest percentage of vaccinated pets in the world. Vaccines protect millions of animals from serious diseases like canine distemper, parvovirus and rabies. Traditionally vets offer buster vaccines every year but all that shots and all those trips to the vet maybe unnecessary.
           We really shouldn't vaccinated unless is absolutely necessary. Professor Ronald Schultz is working with other vaccines experts to develop new guidelines for vaccines. He believes vaccinate every year is overkill and may even be dangerous for your pets.
           The vaccine may actually precipitate a skin condition or it may cause a hives or diarrhea, vomiting. All vaccines have a minimum duration of immunity this is how long the vaccine can fully protect against diseases. The manufacturer of the canine distemper vaccine suggests buster shots every year. Recent studies had shown that the vaccine last up to seven years, the same of to the parvovirus and the adenovirus.
           Those core vaccines you did not need so often than once every three to five years. It also pays to learn what vaccine your pet really needs. The corona virus vaccine last a life time but if often included in routine vaccinations. Vaccines are essential to your pets health but you should talk with your vet about the new minimum guidelines. In the case of vaccine less can be more.



Section 3
In this section I will give you fill-in-the blank exercise. Please complete the following dialog using the provided answers and after that make a role play with your partner and record your voice.


Jane       : Hello, Tom. (1)___________________?
Tom       : Hello, Jane. I’m reading a report about mangrove trees.
Jane       : It sounds interesting. By the way, (2)____________________?
Tom       : Well, A mangrove is a tropical marine tree. Mangroves have special aerial roots and salt-filtering tap roots which enable them to thrive in brackish water.
Jane       : (3)______________________anyway?
Tom       : Brackish water is salty but not as salty as sea water. Mangrove trees are commonly planted and found in coastal areas.
Jane       : Oh, I see. So,(4)­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­__________________________?
Tom       : Mangroves can serve as walls of protection for natural disaster in coastal area like tsunami. According to BBC News, healthy mangrove forests had helped save lives in the Asia disaster tsunami and people tended to respect these natural barriers even more, especially after the tsunami.
Jane       : Well, we have to preserve mangroves then. (5)____________________?
Tom       : There are several species of mangrove tree found all over the world. Some prefer more salinity, while others like to be very-close to a large fresh water source such as river. Some prefer areas that are sheltered from waves. Some species have their roots covered with sea water every day during high tide. Other species grow on dry land but are still part of the ecosystem.

  • Can mangroves serve to protect from disaster like tsunami
  • Can you please tell me about it
  • What are you reading on
  • What do you know about its species
  • What is brackish water

Section 4
This is the last section of your speaking test. Please work in pairs and make a dialog with the topic of animals. Make sure that your dialog in a form of report (You still remember what a report is, don't you?), for example, you may talk about sharks, birds, rhinoceros, etc. Please be prepare for the next week meeting because you have to act out your dialog with your partner in front of the class orally without script on your hand!


Due date of recording task 
I will give you one week to finish your task. Please submit your recording task in form of CD (you have to make your voice recording in .mp3 format) before Monday, April 11, 2011.
Those who are late, I consider they don't submit the assignments. Please feel free if you have any question, leave a comment. Good Luck :)


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28 Mar 2011

A Review of Speaking Lesson Website

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There are a lot of websites that can be used to improve our speaking ability. One of them is ESL Gold.net (ESL: ENGLISH STUDY AND LEARNING MATERIALS!) on http://www.eslgold.net. Here I give you a review of this website.

This website is very useful for learning and teaching English. It provides us with some menu on which we can explore our language skills (Speaking, Listening, Reading and Writing), study about Grammar, Vocabulary, Pronunciation, TOEFEL/TOEIC, and Idioms.

Here is the display of the website



We can find materials to teach speaking on this website; it is delivered with the level choice (Low Beginning, High Beginning, Low Intermediate, High Intermediate, and Advanced). Or you can choose the materials for teaching speaking based on the categories provided, there are eight categories on the website, those are: Phrases for Conversation, Topics for Conversation, Speaking Situations, Textbook Recommendations, Quick Link, Quizzes, Learning Strategies, Teaching Speaking.

There is a link on this blog Talk to Someone in English!. When you click it, there is an instruction if you want to talk to someone in English using Skype. Actually, Skype is a communication tool that allows users to make audio and video calls over the Internet. Calls to other Skype users are free.

This website provides the teacher with thousands of ideas and materials for your classes and students. Teacher can get many ideas how to teach speaking from this website. ESLgold offers tons of resources for both the ESL and EFL environment. Save hours of preparation time. Also, teacher can use this website to assign students through Quizzes.

For students, this website provides them with a lot of materials to improve their language skills, especially their speaking skill trough Phrases for Conversation, Topics for Conversation, and Speaking Situations. Students can practice based on the given topics, trough some situations and learn some phrases on certain speaking situations.

All materials on ESLgold.net are free of charge and organized by skill and level for quick and easy access. For those reasons, I highly recommended this website both for teachers and students in order to get more knowledge and practices to improve language skills, especially speaking skill.
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21 Mar 2011

Listening Test - Report

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Hello my dearest students, are ready to study with me?
In this section, I will give you listening task about report genre. There will be Pre-Listening, Whilst Listening, and Post-Listening. Before we move on those activities, pay attention on the generic structure of the report genre. Here a give you a brief explanation:


Pre-Listening
Please have a look at these pictures below, and match the pictures with the provided sentences below the pictures.

A



B



C


Now, please match the sentences below with the pictures above!

  1. A tornado is a violent, dangerous rotating column of air that is in contact with both the surface of the earth and a cumulonimbus cloud.
  2. A volcano is an opening in a planet's surface which allows magma, volcanic ash, and gases to escape from below the surface.
  3. An earthquake is the result of a sudden release of energy in the Earth's crust that create seismic wave.

Whilst Listening
The next activity is listening to a monologue. Listen carefully to a monologue below and answer the questions!
Listening_Report_Natural Disaster.mp3
just simply click the play button


source: www.haarrr.wordpress.com


Now, please answer these questions.
Questions:
1. What is the title of the monologue?
2. Mention 3 types of natural disaster based on the monologue!
3. What is a fault line?
4. How many active volcanoes in the world?
5. Can we predict earthquakes and volcanoes?

Post-Listening
Complete the paragraph below with appropriate words based on the monologue!
Volcanoes happen where the earth’s (1)......... is thin - lava, dust and gases burst out (erupt) from (2)......... the earth. They can rise into a (3).......... cone shape - like a (4)......... and erupt, or they can be so violent that they just explode directly from the earth with no warning. There are (5).......... ‘active’ volcanoes in the world. This means that they may still be dangerous.

Find the synonym of the words below from the monologue!
1. burst out
2. giant
3. slam against each other
4. portend
5. calamity

Click here to download the answer sheet
Please submit your work trough my e-mail at bintangsenja.aeni@gmail.com with subject Listening Report_Your Full Name_Your Class before Monday, March 28, 2011. Those who are late, I consider they don't submit the assignments.

Please feel free if you have any questions, leave a comment.
Good Luck :)

FURTHER STUDY
For further study about report monologue, listen carefully to the monologue below about Orchid.



Click the play button


What you have to do after listening to the monologue is: try to analyze the structure, of course you have to make transcription of the monologue first, and then, list some specific terms relate to the report monologue you find!
You do not have to submit this exercise, do it on your book and we will discuss it in the next meeting.
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20 Mar 2011

What is a Report Text?

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Report Text is a text which has the function to describe the way things are, with reference to a range of natural, man-made and social phenomena in our environment.

Text Structure
  • Opening Structure
Lead in sentence to state the topic and capture interest.
May include short description of the subject
May include definition
May include classification
  • Paragraphs
Each paragraph is about a different aspect of the subject.
Begins with a topic or a preview sentence
Focus is on facts not opinion
  • Conclusion
Summarizes the information presented
Does not include any new information.

Language features (grammar)
  • Using general nouns (elephants, snakes, etc), technical terms.
  • Formal and impersonal language (avoiding first and second pronoun like I, you, instead using third pronoun like it, they)
  • Use timeless, present tense, e.g. Adelaide is popular with international students.
  • Many “being” and “having” verbs.

Example of Report Text
Goannas
          Australia is home to 25 of the world’s 30 monitor lizard species. In Australia, monitor lizards are called goannas.
          Goannas have flattish bodies, long tails and strong jaws. They are the only lizards with forked tongues, like a snake. Their necks are long and may have loose folds of skin beneath them. Their legs are long and strong, with sharp claws on their feet. Many goannas have stripes, spots and other markings that help to camouflage them. The largest species can grow to more than two metres in length.
          All goannas are daytime hunters. They run, climb and swim well. Goannas hunt small mammals, birds and other reptiles. They also eat dead animals. Smaller goannas eat insects, spiders and worms.
Male goannas fight with each other in the breeding season. Females lay between two and twelve eggs.
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Separated

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Separated - Usher

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
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Thank You for the Boken Heart

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This is a very nice song...
cekidot... just simply click the play button...
listen and enjoy it :)



Thank You for the Broken Heart - J Rice
VERSE 1
Everything I know about love
I learned from you, from you
And everything I know about pain
I learned from you, you

PRECHORUS
You were my only, you were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

CHORUS
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar, oh
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

VERSE 2
I still remember when you called
And said that he didn’t mean anything
How could you expect me to look at you
The same way

PRECHORUS
You were my only but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

CHORUS
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar, oh
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

BRIDGE
And every time I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself
I’ll just remember when you hurt me and I made it

CHORUS
So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be here
With the love of my life, all my pain disappear
I’ve come so far
So thank you for the broken heart

I thank you, I thank you
For the broken heart
Oh yeah oh, for the broken heart

I'll never have a broken heart again
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6 Mar 2011

Pilihan Anda, Kebebasan Anda

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They may take our lives but they'll never take our freedom
-Mel Gibson-


Manusia itu penuh dengan keterbatasan. Kita tidak pernah tahu apa yang akan terjadi di depan nanti. Bisa hal baik, namun bisa juga hal buruk. Sangatlah mudah bagi kita untuk menerima hal-hal yang baik, namun bagaimana kita menghadapi hal-hal yang tidak kita harapkan, itu masih menjadi tanda tanya besar.

Saat kita diperlakukan tidak adil, dituduh, diejek, dihina, atau difitnah, maka saat itu setiap kita memiliki kebebasan bagaimana kita mau bereaksi.

Banyak orang memiliki kecenderungan untuk membela diri, menyangkal, membenarkan diri sendiri, atau pun balas dendam. Namun, hanya sedikit yang mau menerima dengan bijak. Bukan berarti kita tidak boleh membela diri, namun kita perlu melihat hal itu dari sisi objektif: 'Mengapa dan bagaimana hal ini dapat terjadi padaku?'.

Kita juga perlu koreksi diri jika suatu teguran datang dalam hidup kita. Namun, jika hal itu ternyata tidak benar, dan kita tidak dapat membela diri lagi, maka lebih baik kita berdiam diri.

Waktulah yang akan membuktikan kebenaran. Lambat atau cepat sebuah kebenaran pasti terungkap. Ikan basi yang disimpan rapat pasti akan tercium juga baunya.

Jika, kita memilih jalan lain, balas dendam misalnya, coba renungkan....Apa bedanya kita dengan orang yang telah merenggut hidup kita itu?! Kita akan jadi sama jahatnya dengan dia, dan hal itu jelas dapat merusak karakter kita yang baik. Ingatlah, bahwa segala sesuatu yang terjadi memiliki tujuan.

Jadi pilihlah sikap dan reaksi yang baik, karena pilihan Anda menentukan masa depan Anda. Your choice, your freedom!
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3 Mar 2011

New Life

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New Life
by Paul Bodet

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.

Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent.

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1 Mar 2011

Why?

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I got this poem from Drama Class last semester,,
A poem to describe my feeling,, my thought,, my will...my sickness...


Why?
-Nightsan-

Yesterday...
I was full of love for you
filled with hope that you'll love me too
the sight of you gives me pure happiness
among them all I considered you best

Today...
I found out that you already love someone
I gave my whole heart but you offer me none
I am hurt, so I weep and cry
as I watch you leave like a tear in my eyes

Tomorrow...
I will let you go, since you tore me apart
you made my life miserable
coz you break my heart
but no matter how hard I try
I just couldn't say GOOD BYE...
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28 Feb 2011

You're the Author

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Aku tak akan memintamu memilih
karena aku tak suka memilih...
Aku hanya memintamu memutuskan
Berilah aku keputusan yang terbaik...
Terbaik dari yang terbaik...

Kau yang paling tau awalnya,
harusnya kau juga yang paling tau akhirnya...

Bak sebuah cerita, kau pengarangnya...
You're the author!
Ku tau sedikit banyak ada campur tangan-Nya,
dan ini rencana-Nya juga...
Mintalah bantuan-Nya untuk menyelesaikan ceritamu ini...

Sungguh hanya Dia lah penolong sejati
yang tak pernah pamrih atas segala sesuatunya...

Mau kau buat happy ending atau sad ending,
semua imajinasimu kau yang tau...
Atau malah mungkin kau ingin membuat ceritamu ini menggantung?
Hanya untuk membuat penasaran orang,
menerka,
menebak,
dan menduga apa yang akhirnya terjadi diakhir cerita?

Satu hal yang perlu diingat,
tak semua orang punya imajinasi yang sama,
mereka bisa saja akhiri cerita ini sekehendak hati mereka,
semau mereka...

tapi...
bukankah ini ceritamu, karyamu...
jangan melakukannya setengah-setengah...
akhirilah apa yang telah kau awali...
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26 Feb 2011

I Know What You Did on Twitter...

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Cerahnya siang itu tak bisa menahanku tetap dirumah,
dengan motor bututku aku mencari celah...
celah tuk melepaskan sedikit lelah,
atas masalah yang ku rasa semakin memarah...

Sampai diujung jalan itu aku berhenti,
kuparkirkan motor dan sejenak menepi...

Ini untuk kali pertama aku berkunjung,
kupilih bilik paling ujung...
lumayan juga deket AC, dan ada satu bantal besar didalamnya...
panasnya siang itu terbayar sudah, kuambil bantal besar itu untuk membuat nyamannya dudukku...

PC kuhidupkan...
rasanya ingin sebentar saja, tak ingin berlama-lama...
ku pilih personal...

searching....
downloading....
mencari tugas,, mencari hiburan....
sedikit tergelitik untuk membuka salah satu situs jejaring sosialku...

TWITTER

sekedar punya untuk keren-kerenan saja,
tak paham, tak tau cara menggunakannya...
dan sudah lama juga tak membukanya...

aku lihat followers-ku... hanya empat orang saja...
lebih banyak yang aku follow ternyata, ada 20 orang...
dari 20 orang hanya satu nama yang familiar,,
sudah tak bersahabat di facebook ternyata masih ada di twitter.
kenapa belum diremove sama dia? seperti yang dia lakukan di facebook?...
entahlah, setidaknya bukan aku yang mengingkari janji untuk tidak meremove satu sama lain...

inilah jawabannya.....

aku buka akun miliknya...
ku baca tiap postingan dia,, 20 September-30 November...
tak cukupkah dengan apa yang dia tulis di facebook hingga dia katakan semua itu di twitter....
tak bisa membuatku membaca apa yang ditulisnya di facebook, inikah yang dia inginkan??? membiarkan aku tahu lewat twitter....
setiap kata yang kubaca harus ku bayar dengan isak tangis air mata...
tak peduli dimana tempatku berada waktu itu, tangisku pecah seketika itu juga....

sakit, amat sangat sakit rasanya....
sebagai seorang wanita aku merasa dihina!!!

dia membuatku berburuk sangka atas sikapnya...
bisakah aku bilang dia benar kalau yang dia tunjukkan itu salah?
jika tak mau disalahkan, tunjukkan sedikit saja dimana letak benarmu dengan apa yang kau lakukan ini....
ini caramu memberitahuku?
ini caramu menyingkirkanku?
merasa benarkah kau dengan bersikap seperti itu padaku? yang kau anggap saudarimu..........???

kau bilang aku bodoh karena tak sadar dengan keadaan disana yang sudah coba kau beritahukan...
merasakah kau memberitahuku???
tak pernah sekalipun kau beritahu aku....!!!
kau minta aku jangan mengganggu "kalian",, bolehkah aku yang bilang JANGAN GANGGU KAMI????
kau memandang semua ini dari posisimu, tapi kau tak biarkan aku memandang semua ini dari posisiku....

sakitku bukan karenanya, tapi karenaMU...
kata-katamu, caramu menyakitiku sungguh luar biasa hebatnya...

kita sama-sama perempuan,, punya hati yang sama, yang tak akan pernah mau disakiti...
tak ada yang salah dengan cinta, karena dia bisa datang pada siapa saja, kapan saja dia mau... termasuk padamu dan kekasihku...
aku tak salahkan jika akhirnya ada cinta diantara kalian, tak sedikitpun aku berhak atas itu...

tapi coba kau pikirkan, tak berhakkah aku marah jika seperti ini yang aku terima???
kau bilang kau tau betapa aku mencintai kekasihku, ya... memang kau tau, tapi tak kau coba untuk memahaminya...
apa yang kau tahu??? kalau sebenarnya kau tak tau apa-apa tentang kami...
kalau kau tau, kau tak akan pernah setega ini!!!
dari nol aku membinanya, susah payah aku membangunnya...haruskah segampang ini kau menghancurkannya???

tak perlu kau beritahu aku seperti apa kekasihku....
tak perlu kau ajari aku untuk membencinya....
tak perlu kau minta aku tuk melepasnya....
tak perlu kau keluarkan kata-katamu itu untuk membuatku menyerah....

aku yakin kau juga sama....

merasakan sakit yang sama ketika kau mendengar "saudarimu" mengatakan mencintai kekasihmu....
merasakan sakit yang sama ketika "saudarimu" merenggut cinta yang kau punya....
merasakan sakit yang sama ketika "saudarimu" tak pernah sedikitpun menyesal atas apa yang dia lakukan dan malah memintamu pergi menjauh dan tak mengganggunya....

jangan pernah memintaku menyerah....
karena aku tak tau cara melakukannya....

masalahmu dengan kekasihku, aku tak pernah ikut campur....
jangan pulau kau campuri masalah kami....
ini masalah kita,,,
bukan masalahnya, masalahku dan masalahmu....
ini hanya antara aku dan kamu....

tadinya aku pikir kita masih bisa seperti dulu...kau yang baik padaku, kau yang selalu menjadi teman sharingku, kau yang sudah seperti saudariku...
tapi setelah aku tau tulisan-tulisanmu yang tak terbaca olehku...
rasanya hati ini terlampau baik untuk bisa memperbaiki hubungan antara kamu dan aku...

hinalah aku semaumu...
caci maki aku sekehendak hatimu...
memang aku orang yang pantas kau hina, yang pantas kau cerca...

aku tak sekuat dirimu, yang dengan tenang seolah-olah tak terjadi apa-apa,,
meskipun ku tau sebenarnya kau juga merasakan apa yang aku rasa...
aku tak tau caranya berpura-pura, untuk tetap tersenyum walau hatimu menangis, menjerit dan tak ada yang mau mendengarkannya...
biarlah kau bilang aku berlebihan bicara soal cinta, karna memang seperti itulah arti dia untukku kalau kau ingin tau...

maaf jika dengan kedangkalanku aku bicara tentang dirimu,
pernahkah kau mendengar kata-kata ini???
"kita menilai diri kita dari niat kita, tapi orang lain menilai kita dari sikap kita... dan mereka menilai apa yang mereka lihat, bukan apa yang mereka ketahui..."
sikapmu yang kau tunjukkan yang menjadi penilaianku, apa yang aku katakan itulah yang aku lihat dari dirimu...

andai sejak awal kau mau jujur padaku, mungkin sekarang aku tak akan membencimu....
sungguh, membencimu adalah hal yang paling aku benci!!!

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Tentang DIA, Bukan dia...

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Serasa tak berharga air mata ini,,
menetes,, mengalir deras...
slalu seperti itu saat mengingat sakit ini...

sakit ini semakin sakit...
kata-kata bak sembilu itu slalu menyayat dihati.

ini bukan tentang dia,, tapi DIA...
sakitku bukan karenanya,, tapi karenaNYA...
kecewa, lara...
sungguh bukan karenanya,, tapi DIA...

DIA??
DIA seorang wanita, seperti aku juga...
cantik??? Ya, dia cantik melebihi yang aku kira...
pandai??? Ya, tentu saja dia pandai, sangat cerdas malah...
baik??? Ya, dia sangat baik kepadaku...
DIA??
teman???
sahabat???
saudari???
DIA temanku,, yang ku anggap sahabat baikku,, dan dia juga bilang kalau aku ini saudarinya...

DIA = sakitmu???
Ya........!!!

DIA cantik, dengan kecantikanNYA DIA membuat orang yang kucinta melupakan wajah yang dulu selalu dipujanya,, wajah yang dulu selalu dibelai lembut olehnya,, wajah yang tak pernah berhenti dia pandangi walaupun tak secantik DIA...

DIA pandai, dengan kepandaianNYA DIA mendekati kekasihku saat aku tak bisa mendekatinya, DIA bisikkan kata cinta saat aku tak bisa membisikkannya, DIA berikan cintaNYA untuk kekasih yang sudah kuberikan cinta...

DIA baik, dengan kebaikanNYA DIA menyamarkan pandanganku tentangNYA, dengan kebaikanNYA aku tak bisa melihat ada musuh didepan mata, dengan kebaikanNYA DIA lenakan aku dalam kebusukanNYA...

Seorang teman, seperti sahabat dan dianggap saudara???
hanya dibibir saja!!!




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24 Feb 2011

Love is an Action!

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Apalah arti kata "I Love You" jika hanya sebatas dibibir saja.......

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Awalnya aku tak pernah cemburu. Tak juga berpikir panjang, cerita menggiurkan apalagi yang akan dibaginya padaku. Semua mengalir begitu saja, saat setiap hari kulihat dirinya dijemput mobil mewah, diperlakukan bak tuan putri, selalu bisa memakai gaun mewah dan memamerkan foto-foto indahnya.

Aku lantas melihat kepada diriku di depan cermin, betapa beruntungnya Nadya saat itu. Aku juga sering mendengar cerita bahwa Roy, kekasih Nadya selalu mengirimkan puisi indah, menelepon malam-malam hanya demi mengatakan rindunya.

Belakangan ini, aku semakin cemburu padanya, karena Nadya bilang Roy akan segera mengenalkannya pada orang tuanya. Melamar dengan cincin indah di sebuah hotel mewah, dan memintanya menjadi pendamping hidup. Oh, sungguh indah, dan tak diragukan lagi, Nadya hidup seperti di dalam dongeng. Bak seorang putri yang keluar dari buku dongeng dan hidup di dunia nyata.

Sedangkan aku...

Sakti, sosok yang sudah memacariku lebih dari 5 tahun. Membawaku pergi ke mana-mana dengan motornya. Dan tentu saja aku tak pernah sempat memakai sebuah gaun saat diajaknya berkencan. Aku juga menyesuaikan tampilanku saat bermalam minggu dengannya. Praktis dengan t-shirt dan jeans, yang akan mempermudahnya membonceng diriku. Tak juga pernah kuterima SMS manis darinya, hanya SMS-SMS singkat. Bahkan saat ditanya soal kangen, ia akan balas menggodaku, menjahiliku dengan mengatakan tidak pernah merasa kangen. Tak ada bunga dan cokelat di hari Valentine, karena katanya semua hari itu sama. Tak ada pula kado-kado indah, kata-kata manis, makan malam romantis, apalagi sebuah cincin.

Aku jadi semakin bertanya-tanya, mau di bawa ke mana hubunganku ini? Sampai kapan aku harus bertahan begini? Atau aku sudahi saja dengannya?

Isak tangis Nadya kemudian membuatku gugup. Entah angin apa yang mengganggunya kali ini. Ia yang selalu ceria, tertawa dan tak pernah terlihat sedih, tiba-tiba datang berurai air mata, bak badai di tengah hari. Lantas kutahu dari setiap isakannya, Roy telah meninggalkannya. Dengan tega hati melupakan janji dan semua perkataan manisnya. Dan belakangan, kutahu bahwa ternyata Nadyalah yang banyak berkorban demi Roy. Memberikannya uang dalam jumlah besar setiap bulannya, membelikan hadiah-hadiah, baju dan barang-barang mahal. Sama sekali bukan seperti yang kukira.

Tentu saja, tak akan ada acara pertemuan dengan orang tua. Tak ada cincin manis disematkan di jari saat makan malam di restaurant romantis. Tak ada itu cinta!

Dan akupun terhenyak sadar. Sakti. Tak pernah mengucapkan semua kata gombal itu. Tak juga menjanjikan hal-hal manis dan mengumbarnya sepanjang waktu. Yang kuingat, ia selalu memperhatikanku, bersikap baik dan berusaha membahagiakanku. Tanpa perlu mengatakan bahwa ia mencintaiku. Seharusnya aku tahu. Ya, aku tahu. Sakti mencintaiku dengan segala sikap yang ditunjukkannya padaku. Bukan dengan kata-kata madu yang ternyata racun itu.
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